Where my journey began
I grew up in a broken home, a broken family, broken parents, I was given away into this. I lost the only man I thought loved me at a young age. Little did I know Jesus had a plan for me. It started with my birth. He knew my plan before me, he knew the kids I would have, the men I would marry, before I did. He knew what I would do before I did, He set my life up so parallel to the person he had matched up for me, it could not have been a better match, it took 20 years of mental, emotional, verbal and some physical abuse, to get where we are. It was a road most would not have gone down or looked at. We hurt each other, lied to each other, deceived each other, all in front of our kids. I did, I turned into exactly who I said I never would. But He had a plan.
I always knew who God was, I believed Jesus died on the cross for me, but I did not show with my actions, I did not confess to others, I may not have denied him with my mouth, but my actions denied him for me. He did not cause anything I went through, but allowed me to go through it, to walk that path, because he knew, I would get here. He had a plan. I didn't. Jesus was always there, waiting, watching. 2024 was the year that put me in my place. After losing someone I thought of as a parent, I didn't look to Jesus, I looked to drugs. All those years I was in and out of church, I was doing other things but playing the part. I never truly walked with God, or so much as spoke to him, Until December 2024. When I thought my life was about to end.
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