The year that REALLY changed me

So it begins..

2024 Did a lot of damage to not only me, but my health. I have had a lot of years I can look back on and say, yeah that year changed me, or yeah, I did a lot that year. I can confidently say 2024 was IT, 2024 was THE year I had sunk to an all-time low, and instead of looking to God, I looked to drugs, I didn't even have access to them, but Infront me of, yeah, I wanted to feel numb, I did not want to feel what I was feeling. Soon as I realized, I couldn't feel, it was on. I opened up more than I realize but felt nothing. At the time, I thought this was also a way to fix my broken marriage, I wanted to save my marriage. It worked for a time, we opened up, we loved each other like never before, then we went on to harder things, and it got worse. Not only was I numb, but now I hated my life, things were getting violent, verbally, things were being said, I couldn't take back, I couldn't not hear again. Things I very well thought, I wanted to walk out on, I couldn't handle it, but I couldn't stop either. It had a hold of me, Satan had a hold of me, and it was almost too late. Everyday more and more, ignoring my bills that were due, ignoring my kids, food. I let it all go.