It's been a while

Yes, 2024 was the year I was numb to everything that had happened not only recently, but also in the last 20 years my husband and I had been together, if I could just forget it, all the things I did, all the things he did, I thought it was going to be gone forever. I did not think I would ever have to deal with it again, until just a short time after we started sniffing, it was a fight every weekend, brawling over things that had happened, trying to talk and one of us always getting upset, over things that had happened years prior. Things that were just coming out, verbal attacks, name calling, threats, violent verbal accusations, anything you could think of. We went through it during these so slow 7 months. I was for sure this was going to be our downfall, what I thought was going to fix us, was going to completely break us. We hated each other during this time, the sentence "I hate you" came out more than it ever had in 20 years, I started to believe he actually hated me, I was already thinking about walking away, because I could not stand to hear another "I hate you".  I loved him, but I knew months prior to this, it would either make us or break us, it was breaking us, into a million tiny pieces I did not think could ever be put back together. December 2024 was the beginning of my turning point; January 2025 was my first step into my new life. It was also the start of some health issues, mental health issues that I did not understand, nor did I know how to handle.